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 I became fascinated with psychology at the age of 16. When I fell into a severe depression and decided to treat it myself, by gaining more KNOWLEDGEBASE from books, psychology guidance books, and pieces of training available! I didn't take any pills I just decided to approach the problem from a different angle. Because why should I go to a psychologist who has read books that I can read too, and let her judge me? Why should I give myself a list of chemicals to put in my body as "HapPy pills" when they have such a long list of side effects? This of course stayed with me, not the depression, but the knowledge. As you can probably guess, I didn't stop at exploring the human psyche in the context of said depression, but I went further.... much further and that's how my story began nearly 20 years ago... Knowledge gives you strength, as well as peace of mind and understanding. I was fascinated by how much you can see under the mask and infer from apparent behaviors. I...

 Yes, I live in England and yes I am at my home!  When I am in Poland I am on vacation. I am in a country that has never allowed me to move out away from my toxic mother home who, ever since she started drinking, occupied my bed after a party, leaving me nothing to sleep on when I was coming back home at the age of 16th years old. Anyway, I heard mostly that "You are not at yourself home" because it was her home, not mine so I had nothing to say. One day, When she threw away ALL my stuff - clothes, cosmetics, toys, board games - Because it was supposed to be a punishment for disobedience. I returned home and had nothing, being 17 years old... So, I was taking nothing, because I had nothing, began to sleep anywhere, and later at a friend's house with the consent of her Mom and My Dad. For many years I lived in Poland with my Mom and brother. In the meantime "We" moved to a smaller apartment when I was 17+ years old.  As there were three rooms, my mother said we c...

 It's nicer in the basement... I don't think I'll ever understand houses so big that they could house a family of 20 and only have one, two...well three tenants at most. And not happy ones, because they should have no reason to be. They are unhappy because they have been taught to live in these big houses full of abundance as if they were in a fucking museum. More than once, this has been the situation in a cramped room - in a room, in a kitchen, or even in a basement - we crowded in 10 people to be with each other when it was cold outside or raining.  The small room was full of laughter, music, and positive vibes. There may not have been 50 dishes to choose from and 300 types of alcohol, but we had a   great time. Not many of my friends could live in a big house when they had families and earned anything. Maybe that's a good thing because many of them are happy with little or no money and still traveling the world. I grew up on a dirt estate in modest conditions. But I...

 You can make a molehill out of working from home, really. I always support, endorse, and recommend this kind of independence to everyone. I run meetings and courses to teach how to organize your time and spend your money wisely and with investment. But it's been more than three years since I decided to start my own business and I was feeling very tired.   Not because I could have coffee at whatever hour I wanted and not because I was the one who decided what time I got out of bed. But still, since my previous job 'chased me out'... XD and I'm already explaining - I've never been chased out of a job, but in almost every job there comes a point when the music goes to turn off (literally), and soon afterward things start happening that are clearly a message from the world that I should leave because something else is already waiting for me elsewhere.  - The thing is, as soon as the radio station goes down, or the music license is taken away, or there is a change of m...

 I have two options... Either I will be pissed or happy 😉 . I guess it wasn't always like that, because I remember when I was little I cried a lot. So I must have felt sad too, although those memories are kind of blurry. And as soon as I start digging into them e.g. during meditation I just start "roaring" and crying... For several days.... for no reason. (I guess that's why during meditation sometimes you need a human guide.) There is nothing more there than a little childish grief and sadness that pours out and has no end. I don't know what I'm looking for myself. Maybe it's meant to be this way. I am 35 years old and today My life is ruled by two emotions, being furious and joyful. Both are uncontrolled, impetuous, and intertwined with each other. Interestingly, I can go from annoyance to laughter and vice versa very quickly. I don't know why or what has crowded out my other emotions. I do not feel all emotions or not feel them such as long as thos...

 Our minds are amazing.🤩 All you have to do is repeat your thoughts consciously in your head and as if by magic you attract what you are thinking about. Don't you believe it? That's probably because you think it will work straight away.... Not so. It works in such a way that after some time, thats could be a year or two sometimes. When all the other puzzles appear and come together, when you carefully align them with your intentions, then what you are thinking about will appear. ✨ 😭 After all, you can't put the whole picture together without the other puzzles. And when the vision appears it's as if you have the whole picture - they delight in it! ❤️A different puzzle will come along to create it.🧩 How?🤔 Different situations, people, signs in the sky will appear. It could be a chance acquaintance,👋 or maybe information 📰 turned up under your nose. Don't worry if something doesn't appear right away. Think about it intensely, without doubt, and everything you...